im really bored and i wanna go see You me nad Dupree because i love owen wilson. if thats his name

this first week of summer has been awesome. i love my friends so much. i love the freedom of acually being able to go places. usually in summer its just me and my sisters sitting around all day. i mean, its fun but it gets old. this summer i can finally drive and go places. its the best!

Today was the graduation, and I went. It was so nice to see everyone together and happy and sad at the same time. I was glad I got to see all my 'senior buddys' graduate. I dont know how im going to handle it next year when I'm the one graduating. Im probably gonna be a giant disaster of emotional-ness.

Recital is tomorrow. Im SOOO EXCITED, mostly for the acual dancing and stuff, but also becuase once recital is over, I feel like its REALLY summer. like now, it hasnt really hit me yet.

Im gonna make this summer good

I woke up this morning and got all ready for school. It was acually a really good morning. i ate cheese, crackers, apples and frenchtoast for breakfast..haha. but while i was eating, i got this idea that i should take the day off. normally i like to stay home on rainy days that i have bad mornings. but this was a nice day, and i had a good morning. i went upstairs and watched Saved By The Bell! I fell asleep till about 11, and i got up and had some fooood. then i worked on my research paper for a while. I love being home so much. Its so relaxing.

its about 1:30 now. if i was in school, it would be the beginning of 8th period. im not sure what i should do for the end of my day off. when my mom gets home shes gonna help me finish my paper. It's due Tuesday, but i really want to get it done early for once. So I don't have to worry about it over the long weekend. I think i'm gonna watch some OC Season 2. I only watched season 1, and like.. half of season 2. i should catch up, because apparently in this new season that just ended, Marissa died?

it's only about 10:15 at night, and both of my sisters are sleeping i think. i have no one to go harass. everyone online is away.. or at least any people i acually feel like talking to. lately i'm so confused with everything.. i dont even know whats going on.
it's only tuesday. i can't wait till the weekend. but i'm not even looking forward to saturday. my whole day will be eaten up by dance, like usual. i used to really enjoy it, and i still kinda do. i just really really really wish i could have one saturday where i could just hang out with friends before 7 at night.. or just go somewhere. this summer i don't think i'm doing much dancing. i need to take a liiiittle break.

its been a while since ive acually updated. i got home from dance about an hour ago.. and i feel like i still can't catch my breath. but ohhh well, i just ate some cold pizza so im feeling good.

im watching "to catch a preditor" on dateline, or something. its so gross. these old men are such creeps. its like.. men.. from 25-45 years old, coming to meet these girls 12-15 yrs old. right now, theres this real winner warning other "potential" pedifiles and he's like "whatever you do, dont get involved with underaged girls....." .. a-duh?

anywayyy, on a lighter note, SATs are finally over. that means no more SAT class, and homework and stuff. i thought my research paper was basically done, cause i handed in the rough draft. but i got a 70 on the rough draft so im thinking i should rethink everything. gahh.. that was a damn good paper. i dont know what i could possibly add to that thing. its AMAZING.. heh

overall good weekend...

friday night: i picked up ali after dance and we went to target for some bargain hunting.. hahaha. we got a bunch of flip flops. even if its still too cold to wear them comfortably.. they still make me feel like summers coming. after that we were hungry and it was 9:45. panera closes at 10 so we rushed over there and got some foooood. we were the last ones eating there and pretty much got kicked out. i love my conversations with ali. we both seem to be in the same situations a lot of the time.

saturday: was full of dance. kim was sick with strep.. so afterwards i had to stay home with her. amanda went out, and so did my parents with their friends. so it was just me and kim. we started to watch this movie but we got scared. haha so we went to the a&p and got strawberry icecream and those betty crocker individual cake things. mmmmmm

sunday: me and my sister went down to capezio and some other random stores. we got milk spilled on us and got free hot chocolates..haha. it was worth it because there wasnt too much milk, it was just splattered a bit on us. i came home and did my stupid SAT stuff.

Nicole: im sorry our square plans didnt really work out today.. but we must get together next weekend.. no exceptions lol. i decided that i can't live without our little gatherings. we have way too much to talk abouttttttttttttt<3<3<3<3<3<3

it's been a while since i've updated.. things have been pretty wierd lately. i think all i do is create awkward situations. but whatever. i'm sick of caring so much about things and not enough about what i really want. there are so many people that i can't stand, but i put up with them anyway. well i guess thats the same for everyone. i can't walk around like a complete bitch all the time. acually, i can, that wouldn't be good though.

anyway... this week is going fast=) even though it's been colder than it was over the weekend, i feel like spring is coming! i have a feeling the rest of this year is gonna fly by. this summer is going to be so great. my moms friend lives in switzerland, and they might send their 17 year old daughter over to stay with us a couple months. i think that woudl be exciting, since i havent seen this girl since we were like.. 5?! haha.

i'm supposed to be working on my term paper for history right now. all the good topics got taken by the sluts and morons in my class, and i got stuck with "Middle East crisis of the 1950's." WOoO..! i have to talk about the cold war.. and the suez canal and all kinds of "fun" stuff... ohhh well.. i'll get it done eventually.

i saw this in someones xanga and i thought it looked interesting:
Write 10 things intended to 10 different people,
do not say who they are intended for.

1) you are my best friend and i don't think i could ever find anyone who understands me as much as you do. we do everything together, even dig holes in our backyards at midnight for "fun." dont order soggy kids.
2) "why do you build me up buttercup baby just to let me down.." hahah our "lists" and triple chocolate meltdowns will solve our problems=)
3) we just started being really good friends thsi year, but i dont know how i never talked to you as much before!! haha
4) we're supposed to be really close friends, but i don't like how sneaky you are.
5) You could possibly be the MOST annoying perosn ive EVER met in my life
6) we've gone through stages of being really close, then not so much, just becuase of our scheduales and stuff. but i hope we never loose touch again. we always have the best time.... YOUR KA-BLAMO
7) you creep me out a lot. i thought you were normal but acually, your not, and i'm avoiding you.
8) you confuse me a lot.
9) you are one of the fakest girls i know. and i don't even know you that well. but i don't want to. someday soon people are going to see through your flirty, fake-ness and realize what you really are. then you'll be alone.
10) i misssss your wierdness.

well that was random.

this weekend went tooooooo fast. like usual. today my whole family went out cuase my mom wanted to look at this house on the other side of town. i doubt we'll ever move, and i dont want to. even if we stay in this same town, i love our house. the house we looked at was really old, and my mom thought it would be "charming." .. but it wasn't.. in my opinion.
we took 3 cars to see the house. my dad took one, cause after we looked, he went home. then my mom took another with my sister and i drove with my other sister. So, it was pretty much like a family parade. i was sandwiched inbetween. after the house thing me, my mom and sisters went to the mall. we got our passport pictures taken. i hate mine, but whatever.. i dont care. my mom left after that (thast why she had her own car..) and me and my sisters walked around for a while.
when i came home i was gonna watch a lifetime movie, but i couldnt figure it out.. so i watched this marathon of "parental control.." on mtv. which is sooooo pathetic. but i still watched it.

we shouldve had a snow day.. today was such a waste in school. but whatever, im home now. i wanted to go to subway after school, but my mom wouldnt let me. i dont think she trusts me driving in this "inclement weather."
christinas on her way over now. im so excited cause i never get to see her anymore! i never get to see any of my friends anymore really.. everyones always so busy with schoool and stufff. blahh.
i got tickets to see jack's mannequin in april$(*&!(*^!&!!!!!!!!!! i think im gonna pass out that day. WOOOOO

i just wrote about 3 different entrys and deleted them all. i realized that i dont really have anything i feel like writing about. all i know is im really really tired, and hungry. i feel like going and getting stuff to make cake. mmmmmmm in chem today i was getting so hungry. all that lady talks about is food. somehow she relates it to a lab or homework or something. brownies and french toast were the topics of conversation today.
i was just gonna start ranting about how much i hate school, but really i dont. i like seeing everybody and complaning to people. its FUNNNN... i can't wait till the summer, but i hate not seeing all my friends. everyone always makes big plans to hang out all the time, and i usually just end up hanging out with the same few people every week. but, whatever, its allllll gooooood=)
im not really "distressed".. i just like how that little distressed star guy looks. im acually more.. "content."

well now i guess i should write a real entry.. now that annamarie has come to my rescue and helped me figure this thing out.
this morning i had to get up early to go to the dentist. it was a new dentist and they were insaneeeeee.. i need my wisdom teeth out this summer apparently.. ew. we went to the bagel shop and i got a pizza bagel.. i didnt even know those existed.
i have to go to dance in about an hour.. i really dont feel like going today. its so blahhh outside. its gonna be a loooonggg day.

well i dont really understand this. im gonna have to figure it out sometime